My mind feels as if it is whirring. Time has passed so very quickly this summer. I remember the last day of school and the many plans and ideas I had to fill our many days ahead of us. Our days were full and too quickly passed. Day after tomorrow Ethan starts 1st grade. I will put him on the bus at 8:17 am and will not see his cute little face until 3:58 each day when he gets off the bus. (that is if he actually gets off the bus this year unlike last year's first day) Isn't that a long time? He is so excited and I am thrilled that he is so looking forward to it. I took the kids school shopping today in Park City and it was a nice time to drive and think about the summer and the many fun things we've been able to do. There are still many things that I would like to have done, but I think when the kids look back they will hopefully feel like they have had a fun summer filled with sun, and swimming, and popsicles, St. George, and parks, picnics, and fairs, bbq's, and of course the grand finale Disneyland! While in Disneyland Ethan and I were in line together waiting to get on Big Thunder Mountain when he threw a coin in the wishing well and wished that he would "be a great reader this year". I thought that was so cute. Tonight when I knelt at the side of his bed and asked him to pray he prayed for some time including many things like "please help me to be a great reader, help me to get all my math problems right, help in Science, and to be smart and get all A's" I didn't know whether to smile or cry at his real concern and desire to do well in school. Have we put a lot of pressure on him to do well? I hope not. We think he is capable of doing great things and that he is a smart boy but I don't want him thinking that he has to be perfect. He is such a good boy and has so much potential. As much as I have had my moments the past few months where I felt I couldn't take one more outburst, or Ethan and Anna arguing or doing the whole nu-uh, uh-huh, nu-uh un-huh, forgive me for a moment for being dramatic but I just feel like a huge chapter in my sweet boy's life is quickly closing, and in an instant he has become so big. What if he gets made fun off? Who will he sit by at lunch? Will he miss me? Will he make good friends? Will his teacher love him just a tiny bit as much as I do? I'm sure it will be great. What more could you want than a new lunch sack and a transformers thermos? How could it not be the best year yet?
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That made me cry because I feeling the exact same way right now! Tyson is excited but sobbed tonight because "he was going to miss me." which of course made me cry but they are going to be great. A huge chapter of their life is over. Now they will be spending more time with their teacher's than us during most days :( I just hope that he can make good choices!! Good luck tomorrow!!
Goodness, that brought tears to my eyes, and Bryan's not even close to that point yet! It's hard to not wonder about all the questions you mentioned... Letting go even a tiny bit is so hard! I won't even let Bry ride his bike outside unless I can see him. I hope his first day tomorrow is great and that he stays so excited about everything! Hang in there. :)
Good choice on the Transformers thermos! Ethan's such a good boy--he'll do great in 1st grade! Hope you figure out what to do with all your free time! HA HA!
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